Empathy?

I am dragging my feet today. I feel so lifeless.

I was suppose to meet a counsellor today but I fucked up and didn't bring the directions so I called her when I looking for the place to tell her that I couldn't find it. She left me a message on my home phone telling me that she was "sorry but left me VERY CLEAR directions" and I should have brought them with me.

Here's the thing. I work in the mental health field. You don't fucking talk to people who have depression that way. I heard that message and thought to myself, this lady is not in tune with what is going on with people. No empathy. Didn't she ask herself why I left the directions at home? Maybe it's because I feel so shitty all of the time that I can't bring myself to look for them or to call her again, OR TO DO ANYTHING.

I am not sure if I want to see her now. I can't keep feeling this way. I heard that message and just fell alseep.

I just want to sleep forever.