It's easier being alone

Jump foward to pretty much the end of the year. My job is amazing and difficult at the same time. God knows what I posted for the whole world to read, haha as if anyone is actually read this, but after being told that I suffer from Vicarious Trauma I went through a lot of self reflection and healing. I was watching movies that would normally make me self harm and I was dealing with everything.
I have not collapsed, I am just experiencing a minor slope which I am hoping will level out soon. I am sure if it is from the VT or not. I talked, and by talk I mean cried, to my boss about what is going on in my head and she thinks that it's depression. So back to the counsellor's chair I go. I really enjoy talking to counsellors. I can't solve problems without talking to people and bouncing theories and ideas off of them. I am hoping that I don't have to take medication and that talking things out will solve whatever is going on. Depression does make sense though when I look at my life from a bird's eye view. I have a really hard time getting up in the morning, I go to work, I come and if I don't have pre-arranged plans I sit on my couch all night, sometimes sleeping, sometimes listening to music. I want to get up and clean and do laundry but I just can't move. Zero energy. I could sleep for hours and still fall asleep at night. I don't want to cook for myself so I'll just eat garbage. Suicide? No. It's not for me. I have fantasized about it before. I may be depressed but I am way too satisfied to end it at this point in my life.

I am getting my winter legs on this Sunday and going snowboarding and St. Louis Moonstone. Body don't fail me!!!

Check out my new hair!!!